Working out has been so fun for me. Each time I've felt as I improved and was able to do more then the last time.
Which is so much fun. And it gives me the motivation to continue.
I want to see how much better I can do since last time!
Until now. Not the tough times are upon me. Yesterday was the first time, that I felt I didn't want to swim. The first time that it was REALLY REALLY hard to do anything. It went slow, it was tough. And just no fun.
In my head I tell myself that it has to be tough, how can I ever get better if it's just fun and easy.
But what the brain says and what I do are two different things.
I know that this has happened before, and it was just when this feeling came, that I started to have days that I didn't need to do anything. Days I needed to rest. And wops, all of a sudden I didn't do anything for 2 months, and needed to start all over again.
I'm tired of this, I'm tired of this. I'M TIRED OF THIS.
I want to have a true and sustainable change in being.
I want this to be good.
I've done exercises more or less since our travels in Bolivia last year. So I have improved A LOT from what I did before.
But it's the "more or less" that I don't like.
I want it to just be more. No less. All the time. I want it to just be a part of who I am. Nothing else.
So now it's just the time to be tough, hard and set my goal.
And keep to it. yayayayaya.
Tough times are upon me.