Tought times are upon me #2

I've a friend in Sweden, she told me a story once. It was about when she was a small child, and about her mother. 

This friend was a very easy child, like an angel until one day. Her mother thought that she was possessed by a devil, as she turned from an angel, to a devil. 

I always thought that was a weird story. How in the hell could she believe that, possessed by a devil. 

But I understand. Today I understand. Today I've cried almost like a small child. As I don't know what to do, or how to do anything. 

Bigger doubt about myself in the role as a mother, I've never had. Maybe I'm not that good mother that I try to be. 

Maybe I don't give her as much as she needs, as everything I do just  turn wrong. 

And somewhere I hear the voice of people saying that it's just a phase, if I keep being strong it will just pass and she will be good. 

But how easy is it to be strong and keep it up, when there aren't anyone to turn to. no one to ask for help and some hours or a day of relief, to get energy and power to keep doing the nice things, and keep the calm voice when being with her. 

Today I've been hit, pinched, kicked, screamed at, thrown things on. ( Have a big bump on my fore head.)

Wish list.

I really want all of these things.

Not exactly these specific brands. But these things, I am in need of them. 

Barley have a phone today.

My computer has a ridiculous small hard drive. 40 GB, can't store anything.  

Well I have no camera. Need one. Also I would like a photo course. But need the camera first. 

Have a rug, and for that rug I need this thing. It's the best, a rug sweeper. 

An overlock sewing machine. cool

Adjustable mannequin. Also Cool.  

Will try to get the camera and mannequin first.

No I'm of to the swimming pool!

Musli

I didn't use to like it, as the bags I bought with musli, was always so so. 

Almost only oat, no berries or seed. And very expensive. 

So I started to do my own one so I can decide was to have inside it. 

 Roasting some oat cereals with honey. Makes it a bit crispy and tiny bit of sweetness. 

Chopped some nuts, and dries fruits. Added seeds as well. 

Some cornflakes, and raisins. And:

Voila!

I just love it.  

Aprons!

I love them, but no one seems to use them. 

I don't know why, as it keeps the clothes in better condition. 

In stead of clothes with oil stains, I have clean clothes. 

So I made some, anyway. Even if people seems to have stopped to use them. Start again!

You can find more, and also the info how to buy them on my website:

Maria-Madgalena

Biking

We went biking, my little girl and me. Or I biked, and she sat in  her seat, talking, singing and shouting to other people. It was so much fun! Went out a goof three hours. 

When I came back to the rental, the guy was surprised I was already back. They rent out their bikes for the whole day. I said I couldn't really bike more, my girl needed food. 

"But you can come in the afternoon and use it again if you want. You did pay for full day."

"Sorry I can't I don't have the time"

"Well then I will just save the seat on the bike, and you come tomorrow for 2, 3 hours again. Included in the price"

So fantastic service! 

Skala Sport

Trousers. Wihow!

I got them on today!

A pair of jeans, that I've used but hasn't really fitted. 

Today I got them on, as they should be like!

I'm Happy!

Just keep doing my work!

A stone in your hand

When I was in high school and had the physical training, we sometimes had to go out and run. 

I hated it, as I wasn't even slightly fit. 

The hockey guys in my class, was always very happy about it, so they could show of how good they where. 

Each time we had to go run, they picked up a stone in each hand, squeezed it and started running. It was apparently supposed to help you run. I never understood it. 

Today I picked up a stone and put it in my hand, when I went running. 

I'm home from the running, and I still don't get why they did it. 

My add

My add that my lovely husband has done for me. 

If anyone needs things to me amended or sewed up. Just contact me. 

Price list:

Hemming trousers 150

Hemming skirt 150

Change size of dress/skirt/blouse etc 200

Sew in buttons 100

Fixing holes in trousers 100-150

Then there is much more that can be done, but this is just a general price list, it´s the most common request that I do. 

House Decorations

These two, I made over a year ago. But can't find it here. So I think that I haven't post it. 

I had two painting that wasn't very nice. 

So took, some fabric that I liked and attached the fabric in the frame instead. 

Smaller one, with different fabric. 

Here they are together in the living room. 

Leprechaun

I have one at home. At first I was just thinking about it, as a funny thing. As my things are just disappearing.But I think I start to believe it more and more. 

I go and by buttons, they disappear. I get zippers, they are gone. I bought a new seam ripper. I took it home, and never sew it again. 

Now I've looked in the entire flat, lifted all things more then once, but no. Nothing that I'm looking fore, are to find. 

The things disappearing, is a sign, that he doesn't want us here?

Uninspired

tired, hungry,

nausea,  emotional, have I been the last week and half. 

If I didn't know better, I would think I was pregnant. 

But no. 

Maybe need to go and check my blood level. 

Terribly tired.